Came out again..... sortof.....

We recently had a Christmas party for my step-mom's side of the family.  As far as I know, not many people on my step-mom's side of the family know I'm gay.  A big part of that reason is that I'm really not that close to them, so I don't have any real desire to keep them informed about my life. Another reason is that, because this branch is fairly religion and conservative, my coming out might make them criticize my step-mom, who so far has been very accepting of me, for not taking a strong stance against my sinful ways, or something stupid like that.

I think there are at least a couple members of this branch that have found out, but they haven't brought it up.

Anyway, at this Christmas party, I was in the basement with my younger cousins.  Their ages ran about 6-13, I think.  I can never keep track.  Anyway, they were playing the question game with me and the other high school/college aged cousins, where they ask us a lot of really obscure and sometimes ridiculous questions to see if they can get a funny response out of us.  They don't have very high standards for comedy.  They laughed for about 10 minutes when one of my cousins said his school's mascot is a bulldog.

It came to my turn to be interrogated.  They started asking me questions about my Wii.  They asked me when I got it, and I said "I got it when I first came out."  They started laughing, and I asked why.  They pointed out that I said when "I" first came out, instead of when "it" first came out.  I laughed and said that I didn't first come out until a little while after I bought my Wii.  I was being completely serious, but I don't think any of them picked up on it.  My little sister, who knows I'm gay and was in the room, looked at me and started laughing.

Yeah. That's my holiday story. Later

-Robbie 

Gay Pirates

So I just found this (sortof) new song called Gay Pirates.  It's by this guy called Cosmo Jarvis.
Don't let the title give you the wrong idea.  This song is actually really serious content wise.  It just might be the greatest gay love song ever made. Don't believe me?

I'm impressed by the music video too.  For being one giant take, it's pretty well done.

Anyway, just found this today and thought I'd show and tell

If you guys have any other cool Gay-themed songs you'd like to show, please post them in the comments below.
Also, If you have any questions or comments for me, you can email me at gayfighterrobbie@gmail.com, or ask me a question on formspring using the box on the upper right-hand side of the blog

Kung Fu Fighting!

I'm not sure if I've mentinned this before, but I've started learning my second martial art: Wushu!
Wushu is basically a modernized version of Kung Fu.  I'd say more, but since I've only just started learning it, I'm not that comfortable with my knowledge of it.  Anyway, one of my TKD students has been practicing Wushu for years, since before learning TKD.  The other black belts and I had talked to him to see if he would be allowed/interested to teach some Wushu to the class (since we lost our home school awhile back and are therefore an "unofficial" TKD school, we decided we might as well take advantage of our situation and teach things that you wouldn't normally teach in a formal TKD school).  Anyway, he talked to his Sifu (teacher; see-foo), who gave him permission to teach us.  It was a lot of fun.  It moves very differently than TKD, and it's been a little awkward to learn so far, but I'd like to think I'm picking it up pretty well.

Here's the first form I'm learning.  My student (or teacher in this case lol) taught it a little different.  I looked through a few videos of it on youtube, and this one is the closest I could find to the way he teaches it.

Anyway, that resting stance she does? Where she's basically sitting? Yeah, that was a bitch to learn it's really awkward and hurts your knees at first.  Now that I can do it pretty well, it's kindof fun.  I like to impress people by randomly falling into it lol.
That sweeping arm movement towards the end was also really awkward to learn.  I'm learning my second form now, which I can't find a video of, mostly because my student/teacher doesn't really bother telling us the names of these forms.  He has such little confidence in his pronunciation skills with these Chinese names, that he's afraid he'll accidentally say them completely wrong.

When he teaches, I've tried calling him Sifu, but he hates it when I call him that.  He says that it's not inappropriate to call him that, he just feels weird being called that name since all of his Sifus are much older and way more experienced than him.

I really want to go to a real Wushu school.  My teacher tells me that there's a lot of stuff that he's not allowed to teach, and that you have to go to an actual school in order to learn it

I love you, Dad

I'm home for Thanksgiving Break.  My dad and I went out to dinner the other night, just the two of us.  He started talking to me about how he's recently taken an open stance at his workplace against discriminating against LGBT people.  I personally don't know too much about the environment that he works in, but he claims that many of his co-workers show a lot of discomfort when it comes to hiring an openly LGBT person.  He makes it sound like his workplace is overall not very welcoming.  He wants to change this and sounds pretty passionate about it.  I'm not sure what exactly he plans to do, but I have faith in him.  He's good at getting what he wants lol.

We got to talking about homosexuality and homophobia in general.  I made the comment that sometimes it seems like most straight people don't care much about LGBT issues unless they are close to someone who is LGBT.  My dad quickly defended himself by saying that he's always been supportive of LGBT people.

I'm sure my dad has never had anything against gay people.  At the same time, I don't think he really cared or thought about gay rights much until I came out.  Before I came out, my dad never said anything about the issue.  I remember because that made it really hard for me to figure out whether or not he'd be supportive of me if I came out.  Now that I'm out, he's been going to these diversity seminars and has taken this stance at work.  I don't think he would be doing these things if he didn't know that these issues affected one of his kids.

I didn't want to bring this up with him.  Usually, when I do stuff like that, he denies it and becomes incredibly defensive.  He tries too hard to be perfect sometimes.  I think he's afraid that I might think less of him if he admitted that he hadn't really cared until I came out.  I wouldn't.  I wouldn't hold it against him at all.  I guess he thinks that he shouldn't have needed me as a reason to care; that he should've been a good enough person to care anyway.  None of that matters to me.  He's done his best to be there for me, and that's all I can ask for.  I'm proud of him, no matter what.  I hope he understands that.  I'm not really good at expressing my feelings towards him.

I love you, Dad.

-Robbie

Do masculine bi guys exist?

It's late. I have a paper to write, but I don't want to.

I know this is a really stupid question to ask, but it was actually brought up to me a couple weeks ago.
Do masculine bisexual guys exist?
I was talking to this girl, and she was convinced that masculine bi guys do not exist.
Feminine bi guys exist
Feminine gay guys exist
Masculine gay guys exist
All girls are bisexual to some extent (masculine or feminine)
But masculine bi guys don't exist.  'If you're masculine and you like to put your dick there, you have to be pretty gay."

I didn't know how to respond to this.  Thoughts? (BDNY, Joey, I hope you're reading this post. I'd love to hear what you have to say lol)

2 Girls, 1 Robbie.

Long story short.
I went  to a party sponsored by my school's GSA.  Wound up getting drunk.  Woke up the next morning with two girls in my bed.

Funny how omitting certain details in a story can drastically alter its meaning.
Here's what really happened.  Like I said, my school's GSA was hosting one of its parties.  Every year at my school, these parties are probably the biggest and most popular parties of the year.  We top just about every frat party.  No one knows how to party like the gays I guess.  Hosting a drag show during these dances probably doesn't hurt either.  Anyway, I volunteered to be sober driver for my friend and her roommate, both of whom were now 21 and wanted to get the full experience of these dances.  Anyway, after the dance, we went back to my place.  They felt bad that I wasn't able to be drunk with them at the dance, so they treated me to the rest of what they had in order to get me to catch up.  At this point, I was in no condition to drive them home.  I was also uncomfortable with them walking home.  I told them they needed to crash at my place and go back in the morning.  They agreed, and chose to sleep in my queen-sized bed with me, rather than sleeping on the couch or chairs in my living room. Can't say I blame them.  My bed is pretty fucking comfy.  Besides, how many times do you get the chance to say "I got a gay guy drunk and would up sleeping with him?" lol.
Needless to say, I 'slept' with two girls that night, though nothing ever happened. (I'm shuddering at the thought)
The next day, I texted on of my straight friends this message "Went to the dance last night. got drunk. woke up with 2 girls in my bed this morning..........score?"  He got a kick out of it after I explained what really happened.
He said I probably would've preferred the opposite.  Haha maybe.  I  was pretty drunk after the dance.  Don't know how I would've felt actually walking up the next day though.

I actually could've gotten a hook-up if I really wanted to.  There was this one guy I know who was there who's got a bit of a reputation.  He was hitting on me a lot.  It was getting on my nerves.  He shares a class with me and he gets on my nerves there as well.  Not planning on hooking up with him anytime soon.


On an unrelated note, within 2 days, my previous post received more views than any of my previous posts have ever received.  This Dave Karofsky story must really be big news for people.  I heard that Max Adler is in the process of making a video for the It Gets Better Project  Here is Mr. Max Adler's video

-Robbie

Glee "Never Been Kissed"

As some of you may already know, I'm a big fan of Glee.  Yes, I'm aware that it's probably gayer than Queer as Folk, and that I'm very stereotypical for liking it. fuck off.

Anyway,  this week's episode was a very significant one for a number of reasons.  It seems like it was written in response to all of the suicides that have been happening recently and came off as a bit of an afterschool special.
Still, it was overall a good episode that touched on some important issues.

SPOILER ALERT

Some backstory:  one of the show's main characters is Kurt Hummel.  Kurt is a gay highschool student who came out early on in the series.  While Kurt was initially portrayed as little more than a one-dimentional stereotype, he quickly became the most interesting character on the show.  The scenes revolving around Kurt's sexuality are probably the best moments in the show.  Much of this is due to the incredible acting of Chris Colfer, who plays Kurt, and Mike O'Mally, who plays his father, Burt.  The great quality of these scenes is also due to how well written and grounded they are.  The scene where Kurt comes out to his father was positive yet realistic, with Burt being immediately supportive but admittedly not 100% comfortable with the idea.

What happened on this episode:
Kurt's been dealing with bullying like he has for the past season and a half.  As the only out kid at his school, he is targeted quite a bit for his sexuality.  However, he seems to be experiencing more than usual lately, mostly from a football player named Dave Karofsky.  Because of this, along with the suggestion by his fellow glee-clubbers to spy on their competition, Kurt decides to visit Dalton Academy, an all-boys boarding school.  While there, he meets an opening gay character named Blaine.  Blaine is somewhat of an idealized character, being openly gay, completely accepted by his friends and lacking any apparent character flaw.  Blaine explains that he transferred to Dalton because he couldn't take the bullying at his own school.  Kurt considers transferring to Dalton himself, but Blaine recommends that Kurt face his homophobia head on, rather than run away from it like he did.

Kurt follows this advice.  After coming back to his own high school, Kurt is shoved into some lockers by Dave.  Kurt chases after him into the boy's locker room.  Kurt confronts Dave, and the more Kurt tells Dave off, the more anxious and upset Dave gets.  The scene climaxes when Dave pulls Kurt in for a long, hard kiss.  Kurt is so shocked that he doesn't move.  When Dave tries to kiss him again, Kurt pushes him back, and Dave storms off in a tantrum.

Later in the episode, Kurt tries to confront Dave again, this time with the help of Blaine.  Blaine tries to empathize with Dave, but Dave denies the kiss ever happened and storms off.


First of all, I have to give props to Max Adler, the actor who plays Dave Karofsky, for delivering an amazing performance last night.  His acting was incredibly believable,  I was also very impressed that the show decided to give a previously very minor character a very interesting storyline.  I know, a closeted gay male who tries to deny/hide his own sexuality by beating up other gay kids is nothing new, but a storyline like this one has a lot of potential.  I think there are a lot of guys out there who are like Dave. So far, Kurt's done a good job representing a lot of problems that gay teen males face, particularly effeminate ones.  However, a single character can't encompass every problem faced.  That's why Dave can be a great addition to the show.  As a big, masculine football player, he can represent the problems that masculine gay teens face.  It would be even better if Dave's parents were introduced, and they turn out to not be supportive of their son's sexuality.  While that's a horrible thing to happen, it is a reality for many gay kids and I think it would be good to represent that.

I was a little disappointed that Dave was the only homophobic football player shown in this episode.  Personally, I think it would've been good if Azimio, another football player who is frequently seen bullying with Dave, was included and seen bullying Kurt.  I think that would show that while some homophobic people are trying to hide their own sexuality, some are simply homophobic.  It would also shed more light on Dave's personal problems.  Not only does he have to hear gay jokes and other homophobic remarks, but he has to hear them come from his closest friends.  He also has to say them himself in order to maintain his image.  I supposed the show has time to do this in the future, but I don't think it would've hurt to show a little bit of it now.

anyway, that's my rant on glee.  And yes, I do want to see Kurt and Dave (eventually) get together. Eventually

If you want to see the episode, click here

If you want to see the big confrontation, click here

If Dave really does become more fleshed out, and I really hope he does, he'll probably sing eventually.  I've heard that Max Adler did musical theater in high school, so he probably has at least some skill.
Some songs I could picture Dave singing:
Hallelujah by Leonard Cohen (just replace the feminine pronouns with masculine ones)
Mr. Brightside by the Killers
Shadow Stabbing by Cake
Streets of Philadelphia by Bruce Springsteen
and maybe Here's Where I Stand by Tiffany Taylor